Here we are at the end of yet another year. 2009. Slowly but surely approaching 2010, a year that we probably didn't ever think would come. But, He never fails and here it is. 2010. A new decade. The 20th Chapter of my life.

2009. A Year in Review. I'm not even going to look back. Cause I don't feel like it. I had my good days and my bad and my greater days. Needless to say, the last quarter of the year has been great because of the something new I've been blessed with. Summer wasn't what I wanted it to be. And the spring semester was oodles of fun and me doing as i pleased. December 30th was Beautiful Bliss. I don't know where I'll be when the clock strikes nor do I care where you will be but I will say this.

January 1st, 2010 is a day of official new beginnings cause the year changes. Take this opportunity to not make foolish resolutions and empty promises to yourself and others, just set reasonable goals. And keep those goals in mind and remind yourself of why you set those goals in the first place and try to actively work towards them. And when you feel like you have failed or gone off track, wake up the next day and start over. So you cursed after saying you wouldn't curse in 2010, it's not over. Just try not to do it again. We all slip up and fall and have lapses and such. "We fall down but we.....GET UP" sang Donnie McClurkin once upon a time.

Don't forget to get up after you fall. Don't be so quick to call it quits if it's something you really want. Don't waste your time and energy on things that you know aren't really that important. This is the only way you will be able to keep the right things in focus. Cause it can be so easy to lose sight of the bigger picture and everything that really matters in a midst of all the clutter and excess. Stay Focused.

Stay Positive. I can't preach this enough. It's easier to be positive than to be negative. Remember when math was all positive integers and then they introduced negative integers and you were like WTF? Exactly. They called this chapter Integers. Because the Negative dimension of things had you thinking in ways you had never thought before...no longer were numbers "Numbers", now they were these mysterious "Integers". Doing THE MOST just to incorporate negativity. WACK.

LMAO...pardon me I had to laugh at that. It's getting late.

Ummm.

• Stay Focused.


• Stay Positive.


• Do things to make yourself happy.


• Be yourself. Nothing more, nothing less.


• Let Love & Happiness rule your world.


• Understand that Everyone is Different.


• Remember to Smile.

feelin better than I ever felt before. Today. better late than never. It's your orientation. We can make it better #in2010.

3x a charm

I got that good thing back. and he likes me. I feind for him nightly. this aint about Lust. HAHA

Just on Thursday, I said "What more can I say? Nothing left to do but wait" and check me on Monday. coming out of the weekend with way more than I went in with. and it feels great.

dude said "seriously has 2009 been a go0d year for anybody?"

*looks around-shyly raises hand*

-mo.Reni.K.B.

"I just think that when the sex factor is taken out of the relationship, you really get to know a person"

-miss Angela Simmons

*couldn't agree more"

cliche-touche

good things come to those who wait. it's cliche but it's true. many things are cliche and we write them off because we are tired of hearing the same ol "words of encouragement" and would rather just accept our misery and move on. but really they are cliche because they are said time and time and time again because they are actually true. we are not all insane- doing the same thing over and over and over again expecting a different result. so listen and take heed when someone throws something positive your way...even if you're the one talking to yourself.

im scared

in search of a secret staircase that will continue to take me higher and higher

hoping there's one out there cause I'm not seeing it

maybe I'm not supposed to because it's a secret

the truth outs itself right? so they say...

we shall see in the near future...one of these days

I mean, I'm taking things 1 day at a time. Seizing the day, cherishing the moments, whatever. But I can't help but think about the future. Will it be what I want what I want it to be? Or will it be something even more grand than I could ever imagine?

I can't help but wait.

know your: Self Worth

be aware that you are a Somebody

you do matter. you do have a purpose

have standards for what you can take and what you can't put up with

you are better than some things, and less fit for others

it's not cockiness. it's not conceit.

it's knowing Who You Are

Love Thyself. Value Thyself.

look in the mirror and smile

learn from what you were.

embrace what you are.

and work on what you will be.

do things to make yourself happy

if you don't, who else will.

know your: Self Worth

love. love. love.

Dont smother your significant other. 

Relationships can't grown in the shade. 

Let that bitch breathe.

Listen...

how can you go through life without listening?

A friend, in the lose sense of the word, told me  he doesn't listen to anyone because he knows all the answers to everything. He knows what it takes for him to be great. Like are you for serious? I don't see him getting very far with that mentality. He must not understand the value of socialization and education. People who spend their childhoods without any human contact locked up in the basement suffer serious consequences. 

He says he listens to the Cosmos....call it what you want but I'm gonna call it like I see it.

#nowords

Me

I'd rather not sit here and enter information on incoming students into the system. No, I want to do other things. I wish to listen to Confessions, blog, tweet, and text while being paid by the state of Maryland. How to revamp this blog...I saw Ray yesterday and we small-talked about blogging. It's a small, dying subculture. I refuse to let it go though. 5 years and counting. My personal release.

It's easier for me to write than to speak sometimes. Though I can rap, not 16 bars but like a mile a minute about who knows what going everywhere and beyond and having trouble getting back to my original thought but ending on something only to return to it later and politely give the other person the floor as though a conversation with me just be moderated as though it is a debate, but best believe if there's an argument I will get my word out and I will go IN. Exhale. Smile. My bad. I'm simply complex.

And I walk through life as an observer. I listen alot. See alot. Think alot. scratch that. THINK TOO MUCH. So my thoughts run rampant. I just cant afford to share them all with any and everyone. So I choose to write a blog that the world can see. The most public but still quite private. Because only those who seek, will find. And only those who listen, will learn.

Once you know how something works on the inside, you'll never be able to see it the same again. Introducing The Other Me.
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. You're far too kind.

normalcee

I've been meaning to revamp this blog.

But I don't know what I want to do with it.

Might have to go back to the daily ramblings but if I force it, then it won't be true.

And I gotta stay true and real. So we'll see how it goes. 

Today I'm falling sick. This weekend, I fell into LIKE. and I was LOVIN it. i'm enjoying it right now. All signs go..,as far as normal circumstances. I don't think I've ever done anything with my heart or emotions under normal circumstances. Always some monkey wrench in the dynamic. But I'm not even gonna indulge on this one. I'll live in my dreamworld and escape when need be. Yall don't need to know. 

-mo.Reni.K.B.

I remember when I used to be really happy and content with my situation.
That was a fun part of life.

It's not that I hate to see others doing better than me.
I just wish I could say I was doing great, making moves, and taking steps forward as well.

I feel like I'm at a standstill, in a rut.
I don't know what can bring me out of it.

I have an idea and it involves a male.
Not saying I need one to be happy.

I seek concrete companionship.
I find em, they come and GO. 

All I wanted to do this summer was make money. 
All the eggs, all the baskets dropped.

So now I'm left waiting on who knows what.

so if I don't work this summer, what will I do with my time?

so, it's a recession out here. and jobs are hard to come by. i have searched high, not low and have had interviews with no leads. frustrated and discouraged, yes. it's unfair cause i work hard and deserve what i strive for. but what can you do? maybe I'll read this summer or go for walks everyday or fall in love. Probably just read, if I can find the peace to do so. I could be like a friend of mine and fill my time with hanging out with other people I don't care for all that much but I will not give them my precious time. Nope. Rather be alone and by myself than alone in a room full of people. 

Unwanted people will not crowd my life anymore.

Colin= WANTED. 

praying

i was more comfortable with my xanga...

1 week of summer has passed. still praying for this job. i cannot be in this house all summer.

some people say, then get out more? you dont know my situation, it's not that simple. why do people offer simple answers to other people's problems. it wouldn't be such a problem if it was that easy, now would it? "think before you speak" said the great Ray Mullings. still praying. 

so i met this boy for the 2nd time in my lifetime. fast forward nearly 10 years and here we are again. time sure knows how to alter relationships. this time for the very better. i was waiting on this. not him, but this. im happy with it. He is my Intern. and I am BOSS. Together, its Chocolate and Caramel aka The Perfect Plan. me and my metaphorical speech...

plan B? i don't have one. i don't want to need one. i'm praying. i spoke it into existence, i just need it to materialize. please just materialize. still praying. 

My Summer Solstice

Finally I, too, can exhale. My freshman year of college at the University of Maryland College Park has finally come to an end. It was fun. I can say that. I'm ready to make even more memories next year. I need to be more sociable. I have an interest but of course, he doesn't go to UMCP. It was a struggle to finish but when I was sitting there writing that last essay, I was like THIS IS IT. FINITO.

Summertime...I want to work. I want to have stacks! I want to enjoy it.

This blog needs to be revamped. 

CHECK THIS OUT

and the people said...

so people sit and talk and talk and talk about how real they are and they call out all the fake people and all the wrongs with people in this world. and everyone says "PREACH". well duh we're gonna tell you to preach the good news cause its the real ish. however the preacher can be a perpetrator just the same. 

hearts

I wanna get to know you better. 

Only if you let me, 

love will grow much faster. 

Happy ever after,

that it what im after. 

I just want to be with you.

Sex vs. Time

Boys want Sex. Girls want Time.

You just want him to be there and he just wants to get in there. It should be an even exchange, but theoretically, it doesn't work that way. Boys have to fight for Sex, somehow work to get you in that mood so they can get what they want. And if girls says NO, that's something the boys have to deal with. Girls, we ask for your Time and dare you say NO, we'll CRY. a metaphorical cry. with tears. without. hold it against you. whine. complain. You know how girls are. And when we get the Time, which you usually give to us cause we tend to get what we want, HAPPINESS as you sit there sad and bored and without Sex. Poor Boys. 

Boy said: 'If I go see a girl in her room, I expect sex. Otherwise I wouldn't come. If I bring a girl to my room, I'm going to try something. Therefore if you're not giving me Sex, then you're not getting my Time.' oh boy.

--the watered down, no sugar added version--

Girl Likes Boy

"Come thru" she said. "Okay" he said to her surprise. Then he was there and bored and they did that thing they do where he complains about her and she just takes it cause she knows he's right. She can't entertain him, is "shy" around him, can hardly speak but has so much on her mind yet nothing at the same time. "I just wanna lay down" she said. "All you do is lay down" he said commenting on her physical condition as well as her passivity is interpersonal conversation. He gets her (at times) but she fights it cause she fights everything. She does eventually try though and sometimes she wants to just break down in tears so he can hold her. And then there's always the awkward silence or unwarranted violence and his complaining. "You're this. You're that."Business as usual. They are like kids, her more childish than he. They both like SOMETHING about each other but it gets nowhere and nothing ever happens and she won't let him in and he is quick to let it go. Want for Attention- A Terrible Disease. So then he asked "Why am I here?" and she said "Because I called. I don't know why though". He looks to be dying of boredom but some part of him wants to be there. She doesn't get why he puts up with her, or why anyone else does for that fact. But he likes to see the good in people, just like herself. They talk a while, stare in space a while longer. She begins to feel at ease in the silence, all she needs is his presence though hers means nothing to him. He pulls her close and holds her. She does not have to cry. 

Happiness Is..Undefined

I am happy. You should be too. This is my message. I've been surveying friends and associates about where they find their happiness. 40 people surveyed. Some people gave multiple answers. Other answers were repeated. Answers have included:

myself:.:friends:.:others' happiness:.:others:.:family:.:friends:.:being onstage:.:when i discovered my capabilities in art:.:my thoughts:.:God:.:Jesus:.:the bible:.:family:.:things that make me laugh:.:clothing:.:warm bed, with cheeto puffs, and new video game and a girl who likes video games:.:looking good:.:technology:.:girls:.:the shower:.:my good friends:.:the rain:.:music:.:simple things:.:waking up:.:hanging with my friends and family:.:dance:.:marijuana:.:the little things around me that most people don't notice:.:carefree moments:.:my work:.:women:.:my success:.:love:.:when i'm with the people i care about most:.: satisfaction with results from hard work:.:when i see pretty girls:.:

So this got me thinking...

Chester French Kiss

Hello World. I'd like to introduce you to my friends Chester French. Ryan T. is good for something because he put me on. They had this 50s sound and I loved it. Lo and behold they were described as a mix between the Beatles and OutKast ...........yea they're that good. [get the mixtape]   http://www.chesterfrench.com/ 

Look out for Chapter 7: Drops April 21, 2009.

lemme be your nerd girl. 

i have an extraordinary mind. 

my brain is of a kind so unknown. 

-Reni B.

All by Myself.

Tony says...Isolation is 

1. you being away from everyone else 
   
2. just alone time with God
   
3. being set-apart
   
4.  your not being recluse and to your self 
5. your sanctity and holiness just sets you apart from average folk!
   

Everyone has their different perspectives on things. So when I hear someone use a word to describe themselves, I tend to ask them what exactly they mean. I know Webter's definition and yours aren't the same. Isolation, yes, is being set apart. The religious aspect of it, I'm not so sure. Isolation isn't necessarily being alone, just being away from it all. Or just finding yourself always on the outside because you don't fit. Puzzle piece in the wrong box, if you will. I have felt this way many a time, in social situations, like this just isn't me. Im most comfortable when I'm in my own box. 

death: to the pilot

somebody wants to keep up with this. so I'm going to have to keep up with it.
I've nixed the plane thing. I hijacked the flight and killed the pilot. It's my mission and we've landed. Now, let's just live.
So it April 10, 2009 and I have what I want and Im happy. Im reevaluating. Some of the relationships I have just aren't healthy. Like I Love You but Nah. This ain't right. This can't work. It's gotta end even if I have to ignore you. You'll survive. I'll thrive.

...back to my Chester French

doors closing

Everybody Knows. sad song. I think. I obviously wasn't too in love with anyone ever. Cause I'm not longing to be back with anyone. Not missing anyone like that. It just wasn't that good looking back. But John Legend speaks the truth. Nobody has it easy. Nobody really knows how to make it work or how to ease the hurt. That stuff is too hard. Do what you will but hurt and pain are hard to shake. It takes change, people, time, and lies. Yes lies, sometimes you just have to psyche yourself into stuff to fall out of your fits. Something extra slight. I need to be held. I'm done with the pilot cause I'm nothing but a passenger honestly.

--Psyching myself out of like.

tunez: knocks you down

wishing you would come knock me down cuz

i been standing real strong for a little too long. 

knocked down off my personal pedestal where freedom reigns and only my rules matter. 

once ive fallen, its just you and me or I and he. and LOVE LOVE LOVE. 

to be totally in love....is totally unimaginable

this video is the ultimate sexy. 

He loves my mind//I like him back//But the evidence of a connection//is hardly extant//not extinct, because I have hope// hope for progression, hope for something//more than it is now// something special, something with meaning// a thing that maters, a glass that shatters//let it be known, unignorable//something new open, explorable//I remain hopeful, I'll see how the days go// Patience is a virtue. So I'm waiting// Time is of the essence and it's ticking// Knock me down, don't leave me in mid-air cause it's too hard to pull myself back up from nothing. 

tunez: Jimmy Cliff

the musical stylings of Jimmy Cliff

"let your yeah be yeah and your no be no. 

you wear a plastic smile. 

i know by your eyes. 

you speak with an indefinite style. 

you're telling me lies. 

you gotta face reality. 

what's wrong with you and me. 

why cant you free your honesty?"

Being honest is so hard for people to do. I'm pretty good at it. If everyone else was, it would be a crazy world. I guess everyone being obliviously honest would be boring. Leaves no room for mystery. However, lying isn't cool. A vague truth can be just as good as the detailed truth. As long as I'm not fibbing. I should be good, you should too. I'm pretty open. Just ask. 

flight 099

we're on a plane. me and you. this blog is a damn flight

i dont know how we got here but we took off and that was that

we had delays, we met the pilot

ive established that i got a window seat and no one beside me

and we are flying

we have yet to reach cruising altitude

im tryin to get at the pilot. but he's on a mission, i guess. 

i said them off brand niggas cant fly with me, this is airline 43. and in every hood to every club, niggas know bout me, they heard of mo.Reni.K.B. [stolen]

the n-word. are you offended? dont be. 

thinking: wait, what?

why do we scold emotions that we all have? 

why are some topics taboo? 

people are just afraid. so we are all forced to sink into ourselves. and think. and go back and forth. through our ups and downs. in circles. and backwards. trying to figure stuff out, stuff that we have absolutely no understanding of. when you don't understand, you're supposed to ask. but oh how we suffer when we cannot ask. when we have so many questions but cannot seek the answers. let it go and it'll come back later. Google it and you'll still question the different responses of the 1,232,646,394 hits. Damn, still confused. Still in the dark. 

yes! a vacant seat

currently listenin to Kid Cudi. If I had a whip, I'd roll my windows down and blast Day n Nite at nig

ht, driving about 10 mph..with hydraulics. Yup. My boo Kris had a whole bunch of Kid Cudi on his iTunes. And I consider Kris a loner. And this particular song is is about a lonely loner/stoner. I just made the connection. Kris sometimes goes outside to smoke a jay and look up at the stars. Love it. The lonely loner seems to free his mind at night. Perfect sense. 

I am the lovely loner and I love the lonely loner. 

Just isolate yourself. 

At night and in life. 

Be free. 

_________________

I like the night, and being outside. Cause all is calm and quiet and dark. The sunlight is too revealing- you see the good, bad, the ugly, and the greatness. Too much going on, too many distractions, too much obscenity, too much hurt, too much pain, too much reality. Thats the last thing on anyone's wish list...a dose of Reality. Get grounded. Know your role and shut your mouth. [stolen.] But hey sometimes Sometimes you don't want all that and in comes darkness. A blanket...stars and streetlights poking tiny peepholes so it's not total darkness. I cant fade total darkness. Nothing openly exists in total darkness but your eyes and what they perceive. That's just scary to me. I could be in pitch darkness and 10 people could be surrounding me with machine guns and I wouldn't even know until I felt the shots rip through me. Damn. 

_________________ 

Oh and another connection: Alone-Asher Roth. I download music I've never heard before so I was like "the eff is this?". Anyhow, he goes on to say "I wanna be alone and all by myself. Said I'm staying home, dont need no one else. "

_______________

Just isolate yourself. Tonight and always. Breathe. 

<3 

planes: are boring

"I'm happy. I am in love with life. "

I remind myself of this daily. I remember when I wasn't like this. It sucked. I can only hope everyone can feel this way someday if they don't already do. I think it's because I started living life the way I wanted to, coming to terms with things, being at peace with myself, and doing things to make myself happy. That's all it really is. Do what you want. Don't be too hard on yourself and Stay Positive. I don't have EVERYTHING I want but I am content. If I get that little extra, I'll be boosted but without it, I am fine. I'm good. G.O.O.D.

Today was so beautiful. The sun was shining and there was a nice breeze out College Park. And I thought to myself "I love it baybay"

In other news,  my mans Wale released his first single Chillin off of his debut album, coming to a store near you in Summer 2009. I have to let it grow on me because I still am biased toward my mixtape tracks. But I wish him all the success in the world. 

There's this poster I used to see on the wall of one of my classrooms. I'm not sure what school.

It read: DIG DEEPER, CLIMB HIGHER. I like it. Just when you think you've done it all, there's almost something else you can strive for. So get high.

My thoughts are so erratic. My blogs lack the structure and polished-ness that I seek. 

Writing is aesthetic. Mine is not. I am not a writer. 

takeoff: these passengers...

Today is a new day. I'm shouting out Danielle and Ray! Danielle just because she's so supportive. and Ray cause he's just that cool and I like his personality. Now back to business.

SPRING BREAK!!!!!!! Relaxation. Ready for the next step. No vacation. Nothing spectacular. But I'm totally content. If I'm content with my life and I'm on the right track, then that should be enough. I never understood the people who judged the lives of others. Why does what I do with my life affect YOU? oh...nothing you say? thought so, it doesn't. 

Back to college. College, oh University of Maryland College Park. Freshman year is slowly coming to a close. Big ass school with tens of thousands of people and I still get lonely. These people man...people in general man...they just don't tickle my fancy. I'm not extra picky but I just don't take to everyone. I only feel comfortable around certain people. The coolkids usually omit this aura that just turns me off. Cliques- kill me now. And yes they exist in college. I will never like the _____ people. The people who are loud and out there just because....EXTRA and unnecessary.  The people who think they run things. I like the people who are cool enough to be coolkids but choose to not be ALLLL out there which makes them 10x cooler.  oh unless i just love their spirit or know who they really are. then I'm good. LOL. i'm just sayin. I mean these people I dislike may be great people, I just never really meet them. So I'm going to continue to assume what I do about this collective, don't dislike anyone in particular at CP though...for the record. LOL. I'm just sayin.....This is not the entry I intended to write.But I'm gonna continue. This is not me bashing CP people. Cause I have met some really nice people here. nice. good. sweet. kool. funny. chill. All that good stuff.  I do have people who show me love. Especially as far as female friends, CP is giving me what I never really had too much of. Cool ass females, I thought I was the only one. LOL. It's relieving to be with girls and not completely hate it. I still love my males tho. Not too many of the CP ones tho, they just aren't all that great. Anonymous shoutout to the males whom I fux with. I believe solid friendships can be built with time and I got that, so I'm good. I luv my CP fam.

Moving right along. There's this boy. I guessed his middle name right but I forgot it. Anyway, he paid me a visit...in my mind. And I felt so special. (Repeat 3x) And he kissed my forehead which is like the ultimate AWWW. And he pulled me close. I listened to his heartbeat...cause it played my favorite song? NO. But you get the point. It was bliss. He crosses my mind every now and again and again. However, he has yet to make another stop. I'll wait till we reach cruising altitude. 

uhhh check out the Freshness League. i downloaded the mixtape, you can too. 

delayed...

I should write in this much more than I do. But I don't and no one has complained yet. No one really comments so no one really cares. I'll just make that grand assumption. LOL.

This is the 4th entry. I wrote 3 and backspaced them all. I'm struggling. 

I am woman. Woman I am not. Girl I am. Too much to worry about to be Woman.

I am not there yet. I am in no rush to get there. Dont pressure me.

Love me. Encourage Me. Help me. Thats all I need from you. 

You and you. 

Who am I? Reni Bello. 18. the best kept secret. 

I can't do this. I'll be back

 

pilot: the meet & greet

Hello world, those both significant and not. I met this guy wen I was 16 years old and what I loved most was that he had so much.....He had nothing. Brown skin and dreads. A blank slate. How do you build a relationship with someone after they have pretty much left your life. Ask about me. Conversations here and there. Which I love, real conversation that is. Breakdown of the outer, inside look within. I love the inner. The outer is a facade, a mask, a choice. You can't help who you really are but you are [to the world] who you choose to be. Are you following? Thats the person I want to know, the person you are afraid to show. Your secret is safe with me. I won't judge. You hear it all the time. But who will actually say "I will judge. I will lie to you. Im going to break your heart." No one. What are words, anyway. Still, I wont judge you. I wanna get to know ya. And then you can get to know me. Very few people actually know me. 

But I'll show you mine, if you show me yours.

My private parts--my thoughts of course. 

Take me there. Adventures on spaceships. Anywhere. There is more to me than the eye can see. I have more to say than your ears can bear. My love is never ending cause my heart is so big. But you will never know if you never let me show you. This a 'shy' person making herself vulnerable. And no one will answer my call. Last time I ever do this. Ever. Just fulfill your temporary role, I'll know you on the surface, from the departing runway to the baggage carousel once I reach my destination. Thanx

That was a dramatic end.

But I'm not done. Today, March 5th 2009, is a good day. I'm a happy girl, my joy remains internal and eternal. Can't nobody take that away from me.  I once heard something along the lines of at the end of the day, the only person looking out for you is going to be yourself. I agree. You have to do what best for you, make the right choices, and make sure that you're happy at the end of the day...or somewhere close to it. 

Adopt-A Positive-Attitude. 

before takeoff: my thoughts

I may complain but I gain from this class 

"Our heads are filled with things that are not ours."

What does that mean?

We as human have these things called "brains", within the physical brain is a "mind". It can be controlled, manipulated, improved, broken, and even lost.

• Universal Mind Control
• Brainwashing = manipulation
• Tryna get my mind right.
• It gave me piece of mind
• She must've lost her damn mind

Get it? OK

Our heads rest on our shoulders which belong to us. Our brain..central nervous system..all that jazz..ours too. The mind, though, is as much ours as it is everyone elses. It is so easily imprinted on by the world around us. How much of what we "know" can we say we would have come across sitting in an isolated room all of our lives... Without eachother, we are nothing. 

"No man is an island"

 (John Donne's Meditation XVII). 

We are all interconnected and contribute to something greater. Let's work together. We can learn so much from eachother. If we stopped fearing, fighting, and looking down on one another. You can't be an asshole for too long. If we just took the time to listen. Just imagine. Close your eyes and imagine. 

Get Me!

1st stop: houstatlantavegas

Soundtrack of my recent life: Drake: So Far Gone...An October's Very Own Presentation

I'm feeling it. Houstatlantavegas. Lust for Life. Unstoppable. Best I Ever Had. November 18. Ignant Shit. I won't name them all cause that defeats the purpose but I enjoy it. [heavy rotation]

The beats. The flow. The semi-singing. The chill. The punchlines. Cool Stuff. 

I found strength, courage, and wisdom. [india.arie] Somewhere in my trials and tribulation throughout life. I have been through some thangs. Looking back, I have no regrets. I know that I have done things I probably shouldn't have. However, Im happy that those mistakes were made already.  

"Yes I was burned but I called it a lesson learned."

With all of this experience, I am on a much different level and in a pretty different mindset than most. This is not me sicing my head. Im just saying I know a lil more. Knowledge is POWER. If you have the "know", no one can tell you nothing. Though I am still willing to listen and learn and look before I leap of course. You must always be willing to do that. If not, you're going to get lost, things are always changing. Sam Cooke said it awhile back. Change came. Gavin Degraw said it a couple years back. Change is still coming. I don't know why people always act so surprised when things are different. Stagnancy...BLAH. Life is full of UPS

and

DOWNS

That was me playing with spacing in order to emphasize my point. This is what we discuss in HONR238Y: The Development of the Author in Literary History and Creative Writing.  [sigh] It's exposing me to stuff I would have never read or known about. I even read a whole novel. reading is fun[damental]. People need to read more, talk less. Get up on the "know". I need to read more, think less, and express myself more. That's why I write...blog and rap and rant and think aloud on paper...cant fade POETRY. my writing is not aesthetic. Anyhow, back to the importance of reading. I used to LOVE reading as a child, it took me places. Music does that now. Read more, talk less. I hope someone reads this...

when im gone, the whole county miss me, im on my PG shit

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my arrival

I've been blogging for over 4 years. I thought I'd step onto the .blogspot and switch it up.