A Year In Review

what: It's 10pm and I have no one to call

when: while listening to "It's 4AM and my lover won't answer"

Wednesday, December 26, 2012. Day after Christmas. 5 more days left in the year. 

Time to wrap up the year 2012. In a completely different place than I was at the beginning of the year. Which is a good thing of course. There were definitely some things that happened that shook my world all the way up. While unwelcome, the shakeup was necessary. Gave me that moment of clarity. Sometimes I'd rather put my rose colored glasses back on but then I remember the importance of living and learning so back to it, I go. Live. Learn. Fall. Get back up. Backslide. Recover. Thank God for cycles, for chances to go back and do better, for redoes. 

What more can I say? 

I'm blessed. 22 and undeservingly blessed. 

Met some great people in 2012. 

And had some even greater times.

A year of fleeting things. And there's nothing wrong with that. Some things are only meant to last for a moment. Reasons, seasons, lifetimes.

This was probably my most financially prosperous year as well. 

My churched out year. 

The year it all paid off.

Graduation year.

My first taste of real life.

New chapter year.

A good year for me. 

And if it wasn't a good one for you, I can only hope that 2013 will be better. 

To 2012, we say farewell. Good bye. We will not be seeing you later.

2013. I'm ready. Are you?

December

I've been thinking to myself about how much I want to write. But really I just like to check on you every so often. You, as in this here blog, not my readers or anything. I don't have those. I write for no audience than myself.

Updates: About that book, haven't opened it since that day. I'm not serious.

Will be home in 12 days. Wrapping up this first semester of graduate school. It's been fun. A breeze, dare I say. But again, it's time to get serious.

I've really been living this life coasting. I'm doing pretty well for myself but sometimes, I feel like I could be doing so much more. For all that I have, I could be that much farther.

But I'm so not together. And then I say, it's okay, I'm young. But then again, time waits for no one. Best to start preparing now when you can than be looking around lost later. And then I remind myself of all I've done and realize I have been preparing thus far thus fine. And that I shant worry and everything will be fine. And I stop being dramatic.

And tune back into Beyonce. Cause it's Friday night and I accomplished things yesterday and earlier today and I can afford to do that.

Night

Day 1

I am going to start reading...novels. 

The Jungle 11/14/12

Nov4

aww my daddy just called me to make sure I'm registered to vote while I'm down here. And he registered my Mom yest. Sweetest thing he ever did!

My first time on this absentee stuff. Her first big election year as an American citizen.

Don't take your rights for granted.

True life: I don't have any hobbies.

I still haven't picked up a book this summer as I told myself I would. 

I need to be more disciplined. Set goals. Write them down. Map out a plan of how I'll achieve them. And then actually begin to work towards them and follow through. For the first time this summer, I made a life "to-do" list and I can't even pretend like I didn't miss that satisfaction of crossing things off. I didn't even have a huge need for to-do lists this past spring semester and I admitted numerous times that I still felt like my life was in shambles. It's kind of hard to count on your memory to remind you of the little things you need to get done. I'll get on it once I start school.

25 days until my move....

I've never bought a one-way ticket before. It felt kinda good. 

Hey Boo

*blows kisses and runs away*

hi there..UMD ALUM HERE

So graduation was a week ago. It was such a joyous event. Can't believe I'm officially a college graduate. I have a degree and letters to put behind my name. I can tell people that "I went to the University of Maryland". I will soon be saying that "I'm working on my Master's". I will soon be saying "I'm from Maryland but I'm based in Atlanta". I'm getting grown.

Since graduation I have:

• gone to Miami
• secured a summer internship
• subleased my apartment

May has been such a winning month! The fun continues. 

15 more days to go

Crossing the stage at age 21 on May 21st. Golden graduation anyone?

I started this blog as a college freshman. And my first blog as a high school freshman. Here I am about to be a college graduate and graduate school student.

My! How time flies. It's a mix of crazy, scary, and beautiful all at the same time. 

Graduation season is such an exciting time. I'm proud to say that many of my friends are graduating after these 4 years and moving on to greater heights. This school. That school. Yeah my friends like school. Some of us kickstarting our careers. All of us preparing ourselves to be one step closer to realizing our dreams and reaching our goals. So wonderful.

Go Class of 2012!

29 Days to Graduation

Saturday afternoon.

Sitting in silence.

Reading...blogs.

Came to realization today that those are really the only things I really enjoy reading and find myself reading often.

I'm trying to get back into books. Tried it with Hunger Games. Finding time to sit and read a book is difficult for me. I like doing things that I can do at the same time as doing other things.

Books require a lot of sit-down time and attention.

april 2011

From daily pleasantry to distant memory.

I hardly remember what life was like a year ago. I don't remember my day-to-day. Hardly remember my emotions. Things are really that much different.

I've come full circle..which would put me right back where I was..but then I kept going and never looked back.

Just Fine

love it. Urban Cartel. #TerpNation

thinking about you

A tornado flew around my room. before you came. Excuse. the mess it made It u. sually doesn't rain in Sou. thern California. much like Arizona.

Do you think about me still?

Hitting my notes. Hair drying all wild. Should be sleep. Semi-big day tomorrow.

No I don't like you. I just thought you were cool enough to kick it.

fact

I live in fairy tale land and still believe in happy endings. I am comforted by the fact that in the end, all will be well. It helps me to worry less, at least when I remember.

memory lane

Can I take you back to January 29th. This was the morning that joy came after weeping had endured for a night. Literally. This was the Sunday, I got myself together and went to church.

This is when I was first introduced to that verse from Psalms 30. It was too real. This is the day the Bokamoso Youth (from South Africa) came and SANG and completely blew me away. The voices, dances, clapping, and stomping that comprises their performance was EVERYTHING. And then if that wasn't amazing enough, if I told you how the church blessed them that day, you would not even believe. For someone who still believes in the inherit good of the human race, it was nothing short of reaffirming that genuine givers still exist.

anyway, I finally found them on Youtube

This was the day that all I could exclaim was Look At God.

As what was at once a big deal falls apart, I'm starting to see the things that really matter come together. It's a great feeling. For that, I am grateful.

I've been getting short and sweet words of advice in passing as of late. Taking it all in.

morning

Great is thy faithfulness. Great is the faithfulness. Morning by morning, new mercies I see. All I have needed thy hand has provided. Great is thy faithfulness, Lord unto me.

In the morning you'll be alright

In the morning, the sun's gonna shine

In the morning, no clouds in the sky

When it's dark in your life, just wait for the daylight

Weeping may last through the night but joy cometh in the morning.

Psalm 30:5

It's all coming together now.

RIP Whitney

Haven't had the chance to sit down and listen to Whitney jams since the news broke.

Where to begin...

This is almost like Michael all over again.

today

Joy is everlasting. Happiness comes and goes.

being me.

So many people telling me I have so much going for me and have nothing to worry about.

So much pressure. Still a good feeling.

noninterests

Conversations on black people vs. the white man and mental slavery and self-hate.

Count me out.

lesson 1

Such is life. Learning lessons in the most unexpected places.

Today, I watched 'Crazy Stupid Love'. Lesson learned: Fight for the one you love.

2012

Question of the hour: What are we doing?

New year. Time to re-evaluate.