hearts

I wanna get to know you better. 

Only if you let me, 

love will grow much faster. 

Happy ever after,

that it what im after. 

I just want to be with you.

Sex vs. Time

Boys want Sex. Girls want Time.

You just want him to be there and he just wants to get in there. It should be an even exchange, but theoretically, it doesn't work that way. Boys have to fight for Sex, somehow work to get you in that mood so they can get what they want. And if girls says NO, that's something the boys have to deal with. Girls, we ask for your Time and dare you say NO, we'll CRY. a metaphorical cry. with tears. without. hold it against you. whine. complain. You know how girls are. And when we get the Time, which you usually give to us cause we tend to get what we want, HAPPINESS as you sit there sad and bored and without Sex. Poor Boys. 

Boy said: 'If I go see a girl in her room, I expect sex. Otherwise I wouldn't come. If I bring a girl to my room, I'm going to try something. Therefore if you're not giving me Sex, then you're not getting my Time.' oh boy.

--the watered down, no sugar added version--

Girl Likes Boy

"Come thru" she said. "Okay" he said to her surprise. Then he was there and bored and they did that thing they do where he complains about her and she just takes it cause she knows he's right. She can't entertain him, is "shy" around him, can hardly speak but has so much on her mind yet nothing at the same time. "I just wanna lay down" she said. "All you do is lay down" he said commenting on her physical condition as well as her passivity is interpersonal conversation. He gets her (at times) but she fights it cause she fights everything. She does eventually try though and sometimes she wants to just break down in tears so he can hold her. And then there's always the awkward silence or unwarranted violence and his complaining. "You're this. You're that."Business as usual. They are like kids, her more childish than he. They both like SOMETHING about each other but it gets nowhere and nothing ever happens and she won't let him in and he is quick to let it go. Want for Attention- A Terrible Disease. So then he asked "Why am I here?" and she said "Because I called. I don't know why though". He looks to be dying of boredom but some part of him wants to be there. She doesn't get why he puts up with her, or why anyone else does for that fact. But he likes to see the good in people, just like herself. They talk a while, stare in space a while longer. She begins to feel at ease in the silence, all she needs is his presence though hers means nothing to him. He pulls her close and holds her. She does not have to cry. 

Happiness Is..Undefined

I am happy. You should be too. This is my message. I've been surveying friends and associates about where they find their happiness. 40 people surveyed. Some people gave multiple answers. Other answers were repeated. Answers have included:

myself:.:friends:.:others' happiness:.:others:.:family:.:friends:.:being onstage:.:when i discovered my capabilities in art:.:my thoughts:.:God:.:Jesus:.:the bible:.:family:.:things that make me laugh:.:clothing:.:warm bed, with cheeto puffs, and new video game and a girl who likes video games:.:looking good:.:technology:.:girls:.:the shower:.:my good friends:.:the rain:.:music:.:simple things:.:waking up:.:hanging with my friends and family:.:dance:.:marijuana:.:the little things around me that most people don't notice:.:carefree moments:.:my work:.:women:.:my success:.:love:.:when i'm with the people i care about most:.: satisfaction with results from hard work:.:when i see pretty girls:.:

So this got me thinking...

Chester French Kiss

Hello World. I'd like to introduce you to my friends Chester French. Ryan T. is good for something because he put me on. They had this 50s sound and I loved it. Lo and behold they were described as a mix between the Beatles and OutKast ...........yea they're that good. [get the mixtape]   http://www.chesterfrench.com/ 

Look out for Chapter 7: Drops April 21, 2009.

lemme be your nerd girl. 

i have an extraordinary mind. 

my brain is of a kind so unknown. 

-Reni B.

All by Myself.

Tony says...Isolation is 

1. you being away from everyone else 
   
2. just alone time with God
   
3. being set-apart
   
4.  your not being recluse and to your self 
5. your sanctity and holiness just sets you apart from average folk!
   

Everyone has their different perspectives on things. So when I hear someone use a word to describe themselves, I tend to ask them what exactly they mean. I know Webter's definition and yours aren't the same. Isolation, yes, is being set apart. The religious aspect of it, I'm not so sure. Isolation isn't necessarily being alone, just being away from it all. Or just finding yourself always on the outside because you don't fit. Puzzle piece in the wrong box, if you will. I have felt this way many a time, in social situations, like this just isn't me. Im most comfortable when I'm in my own box. 

death: to the pilot

somebody wants to keep up with this. so I'm going to have to keep up with it.
I've nixed the plane thing. I hijacked the flight and killed the pilot. It's my mission and we've landed. Now, let's just live.
So it April 10, 2009 and I have what I want and Im happy. Im reevaluating. Some of the relationships I have just aren't healthy. Like I Love You but Nah. This ain't right. This can't work. It's gotta end even if I have to ignore you. You'll survive. I'll thrive.

...back to my Chester French